Citation

Mahmood CK. Anthropol. Humanism. 2008; 33(1‐2): 1-11.

Copyright

(Copyright © 2008, Society for Humanistic Anthropology and the American Anthropological Association, Publisher John Wiley and Sons)

DOI

10.1111/j.1548-1409.2008.00001.x

PMID

unavailable

Abstract

In this deeply personal account, I describe for the first time how I was assaulted, beaten, and raped by a gang of hired thugs or rogue police in a north central Indian state during fieldwork in 1992. A graphic narrative of this event leads into a brief meditation on the sorts of things readers would typically prefer not to know, and on our compulsion as engaged anthropologists to bring them into the conversation anyway. I conclude with the persisting hope of survivors of violence—like many of our ethnographic interlocutors in arenas of conflict—that healing is possible and that change toward justice can occur. Finally, I write of an anthropology that speaks from a spiritual, political, and intellectual paradigm which recognizes that, unspoken or not, values of the heart are as central to our field as those of the mind.